त Is the Golden Plow of Nitai
By Srila Nitaipreshthji
October 12, 2016
Jaya Nitai! Hare Krishna! Jaya Guru Parampara!
I will continue the meaning of त, the fifth stroke in Nitai Vayulekhan. I realised while doing Vayulekhan that Nitai is plowing our heart with glee and joy and happiness. He is always happy. name Nityananda tumi, rupe Nityananda. But still He is more happy, He is more happy plowing our heart even though it is a very menial service. You know plowing is... nowadays they don't even plow, they have tractors. So plowing is a very very small service, but Nitai does it very attentively for us so that we can come to Him quickly. He does it with a lot of joy and happiness in anticipation of our meeting with Him after our heart has become pure by His plow and fertile and soft and ready for the bhakti of Gaura Radha-Krishna to sprout in the heart. So that happiness of anticipation increases Nitai's happiness in doing this small service of plowing in the fifth stroke of Vayulekhan. He does it when we write it in the air.
Whenever I write the fifth stroke in the air, I kind of become blinded by the effulgence which is coming from His plow. It is something which is beyond description, beyond words. It is studded with all kinds of jewels, emeralds, rubies and pearls, gold, ornamental. So the plow is very very beautiful, very very effulgent. If Krishna's Sudershana Chakra is so effulgent like billions of suns, imagine Nitai's plow also! So let that plow arise in your heart while doing the fifth stroke of Nitai Vayulekhan! And it is indescribable with how much detail Nitai is plowing our heart. As I described in the previous audio, it is taking care of all the big and small pebble, the smallest of all, the finest of all, for our sake. His happiness is increasing the more our heart becomes clear through His plow.
And I will tell you the reason why He is plowing in the fifth stroke where the त is in the shape of the plow. So He plows because one, He cannot bear the suffering of His part and parcels. dayara thakur Nitai para dukha jane. para dukha jane. Not only jane, He becomes sad seeing our sadness, our misery in this material world. He is our father. He feels like our father. A father will never let his son suffer. He'll do everything in His power to bring us out of our suffering. So Nitai is plowing, the fifth stroke. He is with lot of anxiety for us. That is one of the reasons why He takes up His plow even though the plow is from Dvapara Yuga. And the other reason I already explained that He misses us. Even though we were never with Him in the past, still inherently we have our relationship eternally with Him, to love Him and He to love us back. nitāiyer caraṇa satya, tāhāra sevaka nitya (Nitai Pada Kamala by Narottama Dasa Thakur). nitya! Our relationship is nitya! Even though we have not acted as per that relationship being nitya badhas, that is confirmed in the Jaiva Dharma.
So Nitai wants us to come to Him very fast. Nitai believes in forgiving, in being liberal, in being magnanimous and benevolent. It means that to give to someone who does not care for it, who is like not qualified for it. So He starts plowing when we do Vayulekhan because of the eagerness to meet us. As they say that a father is waiting for the son more than the son wants to go to Him. So the father takes the plow in Nitai Vayulekhan. We lift our finger and Nitai lifts the plow to prepare our heart and make it a temple for Him and Gaura Radha-Krishna. And like a mirror the transcendental world will manifest in our heart. The shining effulgence coming from the golden plow, it destroys the darkness. It illuminates the heart and Nitai can see where and what the impurities are due to the effulgence of the plow and then Nitai can remove them forever through His plow when we do Vayulekhan.
So two reasons. One is He cannot tolerate our suffering. Second is He wants us to be with Him more than any other Lord wants. Because He is Sarva karana karanam. Maha Vishnu has come from Nitai. The souls came from Maha Vishnu. So Nitai is the first father. So very much caring. If he will not care who else will care for us? That is why He plows our heart with His own hands. Because we are using our hands to touch Him, so He also uses His hands to plow our heart. That is why it is said that take one step towards the Lord and the Lord will come a million steps towards to you. He will reciprocate. That's the nature of Nitai. He will reciprocate infinitely more than what we deserve by that first step. So that is त, the plow.
Hare Krishna Hare Krishna Krishna Krishna Hare Hare
Hare Rama Hare Rama Rama Rama Hare Hare!
Jaya Guruvarga! Dandavat Pranaam.