Ow, argh! Alas alas, on the doomed day when the ten merciful strokes of Nitainam don’t appear very clearly in my mind’s eye while airwriting Them, I can’t cry, feel any love, sense even a little ecstasy, experience any bliss in Harinam, or realize any other spiritual practice at all. Oh Nitai! My only desperate prayer in life is that You never make me live through such days. I am ready for any kind of other punishments even worst than hell, but never ever give this one to me please!!!